beiNg mOmMY

I've known from the start that this pregnancy would be my last. Somehow that made everything different. I cherished everything a little more and tried to burn into memory every little detail. This isn't to say that I didn't cherish memories with each of my girls, but somehow knowing there won't be a next time changes things.

Now that Kaly is finally here, I still find myself trying to take in every second and appreciate all that it means to be mom and have this precious little life in my arms. I cannot wait to see what she will become and to watch her grow and learn, yet at the same time I am screaming at the clock to slow down; to give me a little more time with this baby. I see my other girls and how much they have grown and it amazes me... where has all the time gone. How is Karsyn about to turn 10 in April? Do you realize how close to a teenager she is and that she isn't a kid anymore? She is officially a tween... (and the urban dictionary defines that as girls between the age of 9 ~ 14... too old for toys, but too young for boys) Can Aydin really be one year away from 8 and her baptism? Did she really ask to get her ears pierced for her birthday this year? When did Fynley's hands get so big and when did she decide that she didn't need me to help her with anything?

Now I am holding my last baby? I have decided not to be sad but to just enjoy the moment. I won't get nostalgic, instead I will just embrace what is to come. I am moving on to new experiences and getting ready to make new memories with my 4 daughters. That is exciting. I look forward to the time we will spend together and pray that our mother/daughter relationships will be good ones. Most of all, I look forward to watching Dan handle this whole experience and am so grateful that I get to witness the whole estrogen~filled comedy unfold. I love you my sweet daughters and just ask that you take it easy on us... after all we have never been parents to 4 girls before and we're out numbered!

sHaRinG tHe LovE

Karsyn was asked the other day if she was excited about her new sister and if she got to hold the baby a lot. Dan said that she didn't...
that I
hogged
the baby and didn't let anyone else hold her.

Well Dan...

here is the proof...

I let them hold her

for pictures!

Hey, I carried this little girl for 38 weeks and 5 days... why would I suddenly want to stop?

Oh yeah, because I still needs to be cuddlin' my other lil babies!

And I love me some babies!

fiRSt tiMe biG siSteR

When Grandma Kerry brought Fynley back home after spending a few days while I was in the hospital, she wouldn't even look at me or her baby sister. I wasn't too worried, although it did make me cry. She warmed up quickly and is doing great at this new big sister thing.

She loves to play peek-a-boo with Makalyn and comes to check on her often. She says, "I need to see her face." She told me yesterday that she isn't the baby anymore, she is the
big sister.
I asked her if she was still my baby and she said yes. That will have to be good enough for me, after all she has already told me I can keep her forever.

Sneeze!

oNE wEek oLd

A whole week old already!

tiNy tOeS

They are so tiny and amazing!

fiNaLLy cOmpLeTe

Makalyn Klair Grubbs Makalyn was born Wednesday, December 2, 2009 at 8:36 a.m. She weighed 7lbs 12.3ozs and was 19 1/2 in long. After 2 days in the hospital, which were a difficult separation period for our little family, we are all back home together now. Dan and I knew we wanted 4 babies. Dan teases me saying, we had 4 girls because I needed a matching set... I'm weird like that. No matter the reason, one thing is for sure, my family is complete. We are finally all together again. It is funny because while we knew we wanted 4, I didn't realize, till we got Makalyn home from the hospital, and we were all sitting on my bed together, that she had been missing. I just had this peaceful feeling come over me... my family is finally all here together. We had been waiting for her and hadn't even realized how much we were missing her till she finally got here. These feeling help to strengthen my testimony and my faith in eternal families. It may have been awhile since we saw her and we will need some time to get reacquainted, but there isn't a doubt in my mind that we have always known her and loved her and have been waiting for her to come be with us. I am so grateful to my Father in Heaven for trusting me with another one of His special spirit daughters. I am amazed and humbled by this blessing and wonder what He thinks as He sends them off to join our home. He must not mind them turning out goofy. However it happens, I know I am blessed and so grateful. I love my sweet little girls and am amazed by them. I am humbled that they chose me to be their mama. I look forward to continuing this journey through life with them and my dear sweet husband. I am grateful to have my whole family here with me; to finally be able to have our sweet little Makalyn here with us and to know we get to keep her for eternity. I am so grateful for and love my little forever family.

fiNaL fAmiLy fAnDaNgo fOR fYn

The final episode of the Fynley Birthday Saga... After waiting till everyone was well and planning to celebrate on Saturday, only to decide to just squish it in with Thanksgiving, we have finally finished having Fyn's birthday parties! We will keep celebrating Fyn but after 2 weeks, we will hope this ends the birthday song singing and parties and wrapping presents and most of all the cake!

Please... no more cake!
(I opted for chocolate cream pie for this party as the last of the cake was thrown into the garbage as soon as the strawberries ran out.)
She is now 3. And her face is still messy. Good job self, on taking care of that before she opened presents! Oh well, she is cute even with a dirty face and I'm keeping her no matter what!